TO: MY HEART
Hey..Dear Heart, it's had been a long time I'm not interaction with you.
Firstly, Sorry to let u broken for the second time in such a short time.
I am worry-less until I realized there is something special feel towards him. At first, I keep on ignored it and keep on deny that feeling. But, I surrendered at last. I surrender to my feeling and stubborn. I finally can facing with true me. I finally can facing the feeling towards him.
I don't know why I got such feeling towards him. He is not the best or most handsome or most suitable for me, but why. I couldn't find the answer and keep on asking myself what to do the next. But unfortunately I'm still can't get the answer now.
Sometimes, I can feel his caring and the feeling towards me. But sometimes I feel like I'm just a nobody for him. Sometimes I'm happy and sometimes I'm sad.
Everyone around us thought we are in relationship or future will be in relationship but the fact is we don't know what we are. Sometimes he seems like want to have more development with me but sometimes i feel like he tried to kept distance.
I often got to moody phase. That;s not me. What I want to be is just a simple and happy person.
I can be very motivated sometimes and can be very upset and disappointed sometimes also. What makes me so emotional? I think I got the answer for this question. I've tried many times to force myself stop care about him but I failed for every trial.
